I couldn't make this up if I wanted to...

Last Friday, I visited my Grandmother and spent some time with her having lunch and chatting. While there, she gave me several things that belonged to my dad that she just found when cleaning out a closet. I am so grateful she wanted to share these things with me. One of the items was a bible given to my dad as a graduation gift in 1961. There are several pieces of paper with notes of all kinds placed in various pages of this bible. Early on, my dad was called into the ministry and served as choir director and youth director at various churches. Unfortunately, my dad left the ministry to pursue his own business venture and I'm sorry he left the ministry earlier in his life because he had so much left to give!

There was a notecard in one of the pages and it reads this:

God has a place for every planned creation

A path for every star to go

He drew the course for every rivers journey

Now I know he has a way for me

I place my life in the hands of God

Those hands so scarred now outstretched for me

Wherever it may be over land over sea

May thy will sublime o thou God divine be mine

Now in His will my soul finds life worth living

Each day new blessings from above

Tho' shadows come and valleys seem unending

Still I know He makes a way for me

Hello? How amazing is this! The title of my blog is Making A Way. God revealed this to me in a prayer/study time a couple of months ago. Read my verse at the the top of this blog.

When I read this notecard in my dad's handwriting, I simply couldn't believe it. I knew immediately it was a confirmation from God. How loving and personal He is. He led me to that scripture and He led me to my dad's bible. Wow!

I did some research and discovered that the words above are lyrics to a song titled God Will Make A Way. I discovered an additional verse. See below. Oh how these words ring true for me. And they can ring true for you, too. God is telling us He still has plans for us. I believe this with my whole heart. Oh, I have so much to be thankful for this Thanksgiving.

God will make a way where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide, hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way

Oh, Dad, how you still are speaking to me and teaching me still. I bet you had no idea....I love you!

love,
toni

My Girls

I just want to say my girls are so yummy! I can't believe how in love with them I am. And every year, every month, every day and moment just keeps getting better and better. I think it's because the fog of my grief is beginning to wear off and I can see and feel more clearly now. Amber and Emma are just the sweetest, funniest, smartest kids ever! I could just hold them all day and never let go. I am so proud of them and proud that my most important job is being their mom. I forgot to send their snack with them to school today, so I just went and dropped it off in their classrooms. Amber was sitting in the floor with her other classmates and they were all raising their hands for some question their teacher had just asked. She looked so sweet and innocent sitting there with her friends. And Emma was working in her class as well. She was putting something up when I walked in with her snack. Both of the girls' faces just lit up when they saw me. And best of all? I'm simply their hero, not for forgetting their snack in the first place, but for bringing it directly to them so they wouldn't be left out today. It's the little things that make being a mom so rewarding.

I am in so in love!!!! Thank you, Heavenly Father, for the gift of children, the gift of life even in the midst of so much loss. You truly give and take away, and I am so grateful that you have allowed me to have these precious children. Oh how badly you knew I would need them!

I love you Amber and Emma with all my heart. Simply droplets of sunshine from Heaven!

love,

toni

holiday smells...

My new favorite thing....Glade cinnamon gingerbread candle! I heart this smell!

I'm opening a can of worms...

Heaven help me, but I'm about to open a can of worms. And all I can say is if you disagree with me, you certainly have that right. Just understand that since I am expressing myself on my own blog, that I am certainly entitled to my own opinions and I'm not looking for a fight!


I've made several observations over the course of this election campaign. Some of them have been outright saddening. The opinions of some people, strangers or family and friends, have been extremely disheartening. Having an opinion on various issues in our country is absolutely American - and I expect people to do so. However, having an opinion regarding the color of skin of a presidential candidate is outright WRONG.


I've been convicted today to post this on my blog, and believe me, I've been trying to avoid it. But, I feel I need to express this. And here is where I'm going to alienate people I know probably.....


If you have feelings that you either keep private to yourself or share with others that you simply do not want a black man for president - then shame on you!!!!!!! It is time to put your hypocritical christian ideas away. To behave and live life as a christian and then denounce anyone of color because they are not worthy to be president, you have just negated any christian example you have ever given and it's about time someone puts a stop to this.


I grew up in a household where racial slurs where readily given. Sadly, not just to be mean, but because it was a way of life. No where in the bible does God's word expect us to behave this way, and in the year 2008, people should know better. Please look into your hearts and talk to God about this. If you think I'm nuts and you disagree with me - ask God - I'm sure you're not going to get the answer you want.


I am actually excited that Barack Obama will be the next President of the United States. And yes, I voted for him (okay everyone can pick up their jaws off the floor now). I hope you were even a little inspired if you listened to his speech last night. This man comes from several different backgrounds regarding race, and I do believe he has a different kind of understanding. And he is a christian. He talks to God. He is not a radical terrorist who is going to get us all killed. Do you actually think the United States government didn't do a background check on him when he started this campaign? If he was an actual threat, he would have been removed along time ago. So, please don't fall prey to mass hysteria and rumors. Get your facts straight.


If your opinion differs from mine (and I'm sure it does to most who read this), please know I would appreciate you keeping your negative thoughts on race to yourself and not express it to me or my children. Jay and I are raising Amber and Emma in a different environment, where racial slurs are not commonplace. They are learning to love all. For goodness sakes, if we tell Amber and Emma that God loves them and that He has plans for them and that they can be anything they want to be when they grow up, then how could we ever tell them that people of color can not?


Remember, that even though your presidential candidate might not have been elected this time, and your are afraid that this country is going to hell.....remember that God is still the same God He was before the final votes were counted. He is still in control no matter who is president. We must continue our fervent prayers and trust Him with all things, including the safety and decisions of our political leaders as they lead our nation.


No task is too big for God and He loves us all, no matter what color we were born.


Oh my, now I've done it, I bet I've fired some people up! Love me anyway!


peace and love,
toni

October was fun....

October - enough said! Now, on to turkey day - phew!